cannot be with him

or without him

cannot be with him because he is broken too and the only complete conversation we have ever held was with our bodies and our souls drawn in

cannot be with him because he is eighteen years younger and barricades his heart

cannot be without him because he is gentle and fierce and beautiful

cannot be without him because, together, in our intimacy, we are poetry

cannot be without him because of the way he touches me

cannot be with him because i do not understand him and he knows it

cannot be with him because this is the way he wants it

cannot be without him because without him there is no magic

cannot be with him because the space he has for me in his life is so very small

cannot be without him because that space is the sweetest space i know

cannot be with him because i love him and cannot tell him

cannot be without him

because i love him